Daydream Believer

I get to ride in a parade this Saturday. My work has a carriage and for some reason, I need to pick one of my oldies to ride in it with me. The problem with this is that it has been about 7000 degrees lately, and I don't want one of my little old ladies to die of heat stroke, or melt right there on the spot. I might just take one of my friends instead. They could put on a grey wig, a mumu, and some bright red lipstick. Any takers?
This week has been pretty good. I finally got my raise in. I got about 3.00 more an hour, which is more than 6000 bucks a year. That is kinda cool:) Plus, I finally get a costco membership. I love that place. I am pretty excited for my next paycheck. For some reason, this pay period had 3 more days in it that usual, and I got about 15 hours of overtime. I figured it out, and I will be getting about 800 bucks more than my old paychecks. And, I get paid on my birthday:). I am going shopping..... My regular paychecks will be about 500 more, before taxes, which is nice:)
I think I am done gloating for now. Have a fantastic week!

All I want is a room somewhere, far away from the cold night air

I realize that you can't really name the person who sings this song, so just name the musical. It is playing in the background right now at work. We are having a movie night right outside my door. Our old maintenance man brought in his big projector screen tv and we are having candy, drinks, and fresh popcorn. It is kinda cool.
Well, life is a little better now. I got the promotion that I was supposed to get, so that is good. There is still something kind of bugging me though, and I don't know what it is. I still feel a little unsettled, like there is something else I need to be doing. I am pretty sure that my job is right, and I am supposed to be living where I am living. I just feel like I am missing something and I wish I could figure out what. Maybe it is shoes. Maybe if I go buy a bunch of new shoes, that feeling would go away. I think that is a pretty good idea. Sadly, I can't afford to do that right now. My raise won't be showing up for another couple weeks on my paychecks, and I am working on paying off some bills with the money that I have. I am making some progress, but I am just completely broke all the time now. I hate it. Stupid debt. Soon though, I will have a lot less of it. Then, I can buy some shoes as my reward. I look forward to that day.

How To Save A Life

I am so tired. I feel as though I am walking through life in this dreamlike state the past couple weeks. I can't function. I can't make decisions. And above all, I am finding it very hard to be happy and stay optimistic. There are so many things to say, but so many that I can't. I can't find the words. I can't find the energy. I don't want to find the energy. I just want to stay in bed. I am trying to hard to make changes that will help to alleviate these feelings, but nothing is working out the way I was hoping. I keep looking and looking for this change that I want so badly, but it just won't come. I am stuck. I have hit a dead end and a wall has been built behind me. I can't turn around or go forward. I feel like I am trying to climb up and out without the assistance of a ladder, stepping stool, or pile of boxes. I don't know what to do. I don't know where to turn. I don't know where else to look.

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

I went car shopping yesterday. It was, let's say, interesting. Tickled Pink is trying to find a new car, but we had little success. I think her and I were pretty bored five minutes after we got there, but for some reason, we were there a couple hours. My friend who came with us wanted to look at the transmission type of every single truck/suv on the lot. And somehow, we ended up in the back among all the piece o' crap trade ins. I found my new car, however I will not be purchasing one for quite awhile. It was really pretty and shiny though. T.P. didn't find anything that suited her fancy, but I guess it was worth it to see the twinkle in my friend's eye. He was like a little kid in a candy shop. He seemed to enjoy talking to the sales-people, which is quite odd.
Is it just me, or are anyone else's allergies giving them heck? I just can't find a safe place to escape the sneezing anymore! Outside is bad, and inside is even worse. I thought that pollen counts were supposed to be lowering! Even in my office, which is where I am now, I just can't stop sniffling and sneezing! Stupid nose. I am thinking of having it surgically removed.