I thought of just your face, relaxed, and floated into space

We had one of our world famous BINGO tourney's tonight. At one of our counts, there were over 140 people there. We crammed them all into a space that is only made for about 70..... I am glad that the fire marshall didn't show up. It was my first big event as Activity Director, and it ran quite smoothly. I was pretty happy because it showed the big guns that I am good at my job. We also let the grandkids run around a trick-or-treat to the rooms. We provided the candy that the residents handed out, and I spent hours sorting through it today. Everyone seemed to have a lot of fun, so I was very pleased.
As opposed to last week, I feel a lot better about many aspects of my life. The job is better, I have a few new prospects on the horizon, and this weather is fantastic! I loved seeing the snow yesterday! My favorite time of year starts after Halloween, so only a couple more days! I am going to St. George this weekend, so I will not be in the cold anymore. That does put a damper on my mood, but, I am pretty sure that I ate my weight in pumpkin chocolate cookies today, so I will be okay. Come to think of it, I have some left......
Also, today, I bought the 13th and final book of A Series of Unfortunate Events. I am excited to read it on the 3 hour car ride that I will go on this weekend. Yippee!

I will follow you into the dark

A few weeks ago, I had a lady at work pass away. It was very sad, but not unexpected. I went into work this morning to find out her husband had passed away over the weekend. They were both amazing people. They were so funny and had accomplished so much in their lives. The husband was an amazing piano player, with only nine fingers. He played the circuits in Vegas most of his life for all the greats. The building feels so empty without them. It seems a little more dreary. I think his death hit the other residents harder than any death before. Even though both of them will be missed, there is something so sweet about how quickly he followed her. I think that he truly died of a broken heart. A few of us at work were discussing this today. He has been sick for a while now, but his health was improving so much. We think he just lost all desire to continue on in life. Not to be morbid or insensitive, but that is just about the most romantic thing I have ever heard:)

Everybody Hurts

Sometimes I think that God hates me:(.
I have had a really yucky past couple weeks. Nothing seems to go my way. I have been sick, and I can't stop coughing. People keep dying. The amount of friends that want to hang out with me keeps decreasing (but the quality of people who still want to be my friends makes it worth it), and apparently at my work today, they had a meeting about how awful I am at my job. I took today off since I am working Saturday, and some of the other managers saw this as a great opportunity to stab me in the back. The dining room manager has it out for me because she wants my job and the head boss doesn't like me because I am so young. So today, they just ripped into me saying that I don't do enough activities out on the floor and in the cottage. The girl that I share my office with informed me off all that happened and that she was trying to stand up for me, but nobody paid attention. There were a couple more that were trying to inform them that we do as much as humanly possible, but the others didn't listen. It just makes me mad that people who have never even bothered to see what I do try to criticize it. And to top it off, it was behind my back. If they wanted to make a difference they wouldn't have waited to talk about it on a day that I wasn't there, they would have brought it up in a constructive manner. I cried for a good couple hours after I heard about it. I have been busting my butt trying to do the best I can. I hardly have time to do the stuff I am supposed to do like paper work and making the newsletter because I am always doing activities. And my assistants are so good. They are always trying to make people happy. And the residents are very happy. That is what really matters. I just wish that people would shut their mouths when they don't know what they are talking about. They should all come and try to do my job for a while and maybe they will realize that it is not as easy as they think.

Stuck in a moment you can't get out of

I had another weird dream last night. I scheduled Switchfoot to come and entertain the oldies at my work because the band was doing some kind of community outreach program. However, our normal entertainment room wasn't large enough, so they had to perform in our exclusive outdoor ampitheatre. It was pretty strange.
In real life today at work we took a trip to the Tracy Aviary. We took this man whose wife has been really bad the past couple days, and he just needed to get away. I think he had a great time, but he felt kinda sick towards the end. We got back to the building and found out that his wife had died while we were gone. I felt so bad. I shouldn't have let him come. She wasn't supposed to die for a couple more days. Maybe is was a good thing that he wasn't there. Her daughter was with her, so she wasn't alone. Maybe she didn't want him around when she died. I don't know. I just hope that they don't hate me.

The Road To Mandalay

I took today off. I have been sick with bronchitis and a sinus infection for a couple weeks, and I have not been able to take a day off. Finally, a day came that I was not needed at work, so I stayed home. It is kinda nice. I didn't get to sleep in, however. Last night I had to sleep with this machine on my finger. It is supposed to test my oxygen levels while I am sleeping. We are trying to figure out why I am so tired all the time. My doctor thinks it is sleep apnea. I think that it is something in my nose that doesn't let me breath and needs to be removed. But, maybe my doc is right. I figured that I would give it a chance. Anywho, this machine was awful! It had this green flashing light that blinked in my eyes all night. And, it hurt my finger. I still have this indentation from it. I don't know how it was supposed to test my oxygen while I was asleep because I didn't sleep at all. It was very uncomfortable. I guess I did sleep a little because I had another very weird dream. I was with a bunch of friends in St. George, and we all won Porsches. But, a certain friend of mine wasn't happy with the Porsche that he had won. So he kept trying to steal mine. I didn't want to give him mine. It was red. And fast. My friend had a silver one that had a little less horsepower and he wanted to trade. So, I decided to hurry and leave the car dealer in St. George and hide out somewhere else. One of the car dealer employees was still in my car when I decided that I needed to leave, so he came with. I had a couple other people with me too, and we took off for home. My friend who wanted my car started chasing me in his car. So we had to lose him. We hid out at a friends house, but he found us and stole my car. I was not happy. A few other things happened that I can't remember, and then I woke up. But, now, I really want a fast sports car.