Paperclips

I am so mad! I went to campus tonight for class, and as it turns out my class was moved! It is no longer Tuesday and Thursday, it is Monday and Wednesday. This is a total conflict with a ton of other things! Also, my only friend in the class dropped it too. I want to drop it so bad, but I am going to stick it out. Even though I missed the first day yesterday, I will keep on keepin on. Just in case, I am not opening my book until I go Monday. I don't want lose the 120 bucks that I paid for it.

Other than that stupid mistake, I am still super stressed with my job. But, that should be lessening soon. I have my first non-six day work week next week in a long time (aside from Moab, but that doesn't count.) I should be having more help within a couple weeks. I am pretty excited about that.

*I}+9o-0p (that is a message from the stupid cat who just jumped on my keyboard)

Message In A Bottle

I officially hate my stupid computer. I think that the virus that has been lurking in the shadows of my hard drive finally surfaced. I had to wipe my hard drive clean and completely start over. I tried to solve the problem without doing that, but I got really frustrated and got out my backup windows disk. I erased everything and reinstalled windows. This means that I don't have anything that I had saved on my computer. Luckily, I had backed up all my music and movies a couple weeks ago and had been intending on deleting most everything anyway. This was just the fast way to do it. After installing windows, I couldn't get my wireless network to work. I was getting super frustrated because I couldn't find any information on how to fix it in any of the manuals. After a few hours of searching, I found the solution. I had to reinstall all the drivers for my computer from the HP website. Problem: I can't access the internet without a wireless driver. Well, that isn't entirely true. I had to walk upstairs and unplug the other computer and plug this one in. I got it all worked out, and am typing this from the comfort of my wireless network:). I am now in the process of trying to get back my programs that were deleted. I just downloaded itunes, which is the most important. I need to get Microsoft office again, but I don't want to pay for it. I will probably give in, because I need it. Unless anyone has a pirated copy...... Itunes just finished downloading, and looking at it makes me a little sad. It is soooo empty! I have nothing left! But, my computer is running fast and great, so I guess it will all be worth it in the end. Hopefully.

While taking care of all this computer junk, the tv has been on the Teen Choice Awards. I caught a glimpse of my little Benji in the audience, but that was one of the only good parts. The result "envelopes" were kinda cool. They were slips of paper in bottles. Aside from that, I can't believe how little self respect some people have for themselves! Watching how some of the girls acted made me ashamed for all woman kind. I realize that you all have great bodies and want to flaunt them, but don't wear bikinis and sit in a hot tub in front of the podium. Please. Develop some respect for yourselves. Grrrrrrr.

Dizzy

What a roller coaster of a week. I have had such highs and lows that I feel a little nauseated. Monday was a pretty good day, nothing spectacular. Tuesday wasn't so good. Wednesday started out bad, but then got good. Thursday started out good, but then got bad. On Wednesday work was pretty frustrating, but then I got to go to a meeting that was very affirming, then I went home and watched the finale of So You Think You Can Dance, and it was great! My cute little Benji totally won! Pinkie and I were beside ourselves with excitement:). Moving on to Thursday.... Work was pretty good, but then I went home. We ended up taking my dad to the ER (again) last night and Pinkie and I were there for what seemed like days, but it was mere hours. I think we were there about 4 or 5. And, it was 64 degrees in the waiting room. I could tell because there was a thermometer on the clock. I, luckily, had brought a sweater, but the Pinkie wasn't so fortunate. Even with my sweater, I was freezing! The hospital finally gave us some blankets that had been heated, so that was nice. But, the heat only lasted for a couple minutes, and then we were left with these wimpy little pieces of worn through cloth. Luckily we had control of the TV in the waiting room, so we watched some Friends, Simpsons, Seinfeld, Yes Dear, and finally The Carson Daly Show. He is a dork by the way. I had my ipod with me, but I hadn't charged it in a while, so it died after I had watched an episode of Psych. So, I was very grateful for the TV. Pinkie slept for about an hour in one of the chairs which was good because she had to go to work at 6 this morning. I didn't really sleep, but I didn't have to come in til 9. I think we got home a little before 2, so it wasn't too bad compared to the other times we have spent in hospital waiting rooms. We went because my dad was having some kind of allergic reaction to some medication. He was very puffy and he couldn't talk because of the swelling. They gave him some epinephrine, and that helped a little, but he was still very swollen. They finally admitted him because they found that he had pneumonia and some heart problems. I think. Nobody ever tells me anything.

You make me feel out of my element

What!? Two blogs in one day! What a treat for you guys out there! I don't want to hear anything from McSomethingkins for at least another month. I just have a lot on my mind today, and I need to release it a little. I have come to a decision. I am dropping out of school this semester. For the past couple weeks, especially the past few days, I have felt like I was drowning in all the things I have going on in my life. Now, I feel so much better! I guess I am not dropping out completely. I am staying in my night class, but I am dropping the other three. And the best part, I am totally ok with this. I was so excited to get back into school full time, but I just couldn't do it this semester. Working full time (while trying to train a new person) and trying to do my little side business is going to keep me way too busy. I know that it can be done, but I am going to wait to next semester to prove that. Whew. That feels better.

On another note, I need to learn to be confrontational. Mostly in the area of boys... I spent a couple hours talking to one the other day, and we totally connected. Even though I felt so comfortable with him, I still could not get up the courage to give the slightest inkling that I was interested! Why do I do this? Stupid defense mechanism. I blame it on the fact that I had only gotten about 5 hours of sleep in the past 60 hours. Looking back, I am pretty sure that I missed an opportunity to do something with him. I think he asked what my plans were for that night, and I said that I was going to sleep for a thousand hours. Stupid. After realizing this, I decided that I would rectify the situation the next day at church. To my dismay, he was not there. There were quite a few people who didn't seem to make it due to the Moab trip. I think that I blew my chance with this one. Blast and confound. What can I do so that this doesn't keep happening? I need to learn to open myself up a little more and not be so afraid of looking stupid and getting hurt. It is better to know that there is no chance in the beginning than to get my hopes up only to have them crushed at a later time, right? I just wish that I had the courage to follow my own plan. Maybe next time.

Wear Sunscreen

This weekend was one of firsts for me. I went to Moab for the first time ever, and I had a lot of fun. While there, I went river rafting for the first time, and I got a sunburn for the first time in maybe 10 years. I totally wore sunscreen too! I even reapplied about half way through, but I was too stubborn to ask someone to put it on my back, so that is where I got it the worst. And, it is in the most inconvenient spot. I can't sleep on either side or my back because of the location of this stupid sunburn. And my face is peeling. I hate it. Yuck. I also hiked up to Delicate Arch for the first time. It was very pretty. I also had some nice conversations with some nice people on the way home. All in all, I had a good time.

Why didn't anyone tell me that school starts the 23rd! I was totally planning on it starting the 28th! I am so unprepared! I don't have people to work those days or anything! AAAAUUUGGGGHHHH!

I Will Be Around

Kay.... I realize that this is cheesy, but I watched the Disney Movie that this comes from. I couldn't figure out where I knew the singer from, but then it hit me. Let's see if anyone else can figure it out:)
P.S. If anyone can find this song to download anywhere, let me know. I have looked and looked.

All she wants to do is dance

I missed the results show of So You Think You Can Dance this week. It was very sad indeed. There are only four left, and two of them are my favorites! Yippee! But, this week I have Lagoon Day on Wednesday, so I will have to figure out how to record it. Then, I will be in Moab for the results show! Auuugggghhhh!

I became a Mary Kay Consultant yesterday, as did Pinkie. We are doing it more for the fifty percent discount on all the products, but a little extra money wouldn't be too bad. Who knows. Maybe I will be really good at it and driving a pink Cadillac soon. Nah, I am not planning on getting that into it, but if anyone wants to buy anything, you know who to call:).

I ordered the Anne trilogy and I have been watching it the past couple days. I forgot how long it is. Watching this makes me kinda want to watch another long trilogy. Wouldn't it be fun to have a LOTR party? We could start early in the morning, order a ton of food, and watch the journey of Frodo Baggins all day. Any takers:)?